We're still here!

OK, OK, OK. . . I am officially the worst blogger in history. I know it has been literally forever since I last updated. But, not for lack of anything going on in our lives. In fact, we've had some MAJOR life changes. . . which is the main reason I have neglected this blog for so long. Plus, I must admit. . . I am just tired these days and frankly, haven't felt much like blogging. But, I am getting back in the swing of things and feeling more energized.

So. . . where to begin?? For starters, we have moved to Charlotte, NC. Yep. In the space of about 6 weeks, we put our house in Tampa up for rent on Craig's list, rented it out to a great family, made a trip to Charlotte to sign Charlie up for school and find our own home to rent, packed and made the big move back to North Carolina. Did I mention we packed and moved ourselves entirely?? (With some help from family and friends packing.) No small task considering the unbelievable amount of CRAP we have. I have no idea how a family of 4 can have so much stuff! And how we fit it in our Tampa home is mind boggling. Our new home is almost twice the size and we filled it up with our stuff.

So, why the big move?? We did a lot of soul searching and research since Charlie was diagnosed with autism. It's not that we were unhappy with his therapies and therapists in Tampa, I just felt like we could do MORE. I wanted him in a school environment where he could be around other kids. I know he doesn't exactly "play" with the other children, but I also know he is aware of their existence and does observe what they do. I think the best way for him to learn socialization skills is to be around other children. I also wanted to keep him in ABA. I just did not like the idea of sending him to the public school program and then doing ABA on top of that. It just seemed like too much, and just never FELT right to me. While I did like Sydney's School in Tampa, it really was only a preschool which left us with no real options for post-kindergarten.

So, while researching I came across Garr Christian Academy in Charlotte. Just this year, Garr merged with another Christian school in the area and is now called Charlotte United Christian Academy (CUCA). CUCA is a general education school, ages pre-school through 12th grade. It's a very small, very tight knit Christian school. I think total population, not including pre-school, runs about 150 students. Of that 150, approximately 30 of the children are on the autism spectrum somewhere. CUCA implemented an ABA program approximately 6 years ago. Charlie is now the youngest ABA student there (although many of the current ABA students started at about the same age as Charlie). Charlie's class has 5 students and 4 teachers and is headed by a BCaBA. Everyone there seems very dedicated and professional. They adhere to the Verbal Behavior approach of ABA and do lots of natural environment training, teaching the kids to play and work on language and social skills. They have different levels there with kids across the entire spectrum. The early learners are usually in an ABA classroom all or most of the day. Gradually, they work on inclusion and introducing the student into the general ed classroom. So, eventually, Charlie will spend some time in the pre-school classroom with an inclusion specialist (or "shadow") to help him as much as necesssary and to teach him the rules of the classroom. The ultimate goal is to have the child included as much as possible. Some of the older ABA kids are in the general ed class all day, with no special supports, others are in the general ed classroom for most of the day and are pulled for special services, still others spend more time in an ABA classroom. It is all based on the needs and skills of the student.

Charlie seems to really love it there. From day #1, he has had a big smile when we drop him off and pick him up. (Not like his previous pre-school experience where he cried almost every day we dropped him off.) Admittedly, he is a little exhausted by the end of the day since it's a longer day than he is used to, and Adam and I miss him terribly since we are not used to being away from him for the better part of the day. (He goes M-F from 8:30-3:00.) But, I feel that this is the right place for him now, and I think we made the right choice. Who knows where Charlie will be in a year or two, but CUCA has the potential to be a long term placement if we choose to keep him there. The most important thing is to have him in an environment where he is happy and can thrive. I could go on and on about the adorable kids in his class, but I'll save that for another time.

Addison and I had the privilege of attending Charlie's first ever field trip to Hunter Farm for pumpkin picking and a picnic. What a fabulous day to spend time with my children, Charlie's teachers, and his wonderful and sweet classmates. It was a great day! On another note entirely -- the pumpkin patches here put the ones in Florida to shame. I have been in heaven with all of these wonderful Fall festivals, pumpkin patches, hay mazes, etc.

Addison has adjusted beautifully to the move. I was worried that she would miss our neighborhood terribly. While I am sure we could go back tomorrow and she and Charlie would carry on as if nothing changed, she has really treated this like a new adventure. I have really enjoyed having a little more one on one time with her now that Charlie is in school all day. I get to do the things with her that I did with Charlie before she was born -- toddler time at the library, playground, long walks in the park, lunch at the mall. . . and even a random Starbucks visit here and there. We love our girl time.

Adam and I are also very happy to be back in North Carolina and be closer to our families. I just love that we get to have a real Fall this year since there is no such season in Tampa. I just love that crisp feeling in the air and the beautiful leaves. But, I will readily admit. . . I miss Tampa more than I thought I would. Really, I miss our neighborhood and Westchase the most. This is a great house, but it doesn't have that "home" feel like our house in Westchase did. I miss our wonderful neighbors and being able to walk everywhere like I did in Westchase. We also miss our pool terribly. This is what I miss the most for Charlie. He had turned in to quite a little fish and could swim the length of the pool. I hate that we don't have a pool in our backyard anymore. There is a community pool, but it is only open during th summer. I hope to join the Y so we can get an indoor pool for Charlie to swim in this Winter.

Since I am with Charlie every day, it is really hard for me to assess his progress at times. As usual, it seems like we take two steps forward, then one step back. I know the adjustment to a new home and a new school may have delayed things, although, I am so impressed how well Charlie did with it. He is very go with the flow. We are lucky not to have an ASD child who is stuck on routine, or we would have been in a world of hurt. My mom was in town last week and thinks she sees improvement in Charlie. She thinks he is more "aware" of what is going on and not as "spacey." I would agree with that over all. Don't get me wrong, he is happy to go off in another room and stim to his little heart's content, or run up and down the hall all day, but the second you tell him to stop or come, he's there. I think his verbalizations have increased, although not significantly. He continues to have days where he says words spontaneously, and other days where almost everything is gibberish. I have noticed, however, that the gibberish is taking on more of a decipherable (is that even a word?) nature. If you listen close, many times you can tell that he is trying to say the beginning of certain words or is repeating what you just said. You also have to listen close as he likes to whisper words at times. This is not uncommon with autistic children. It is easy to miss though so you have to always pay attention. I've noticed on numerous occasions that I will be standing in the kitchen preparing a snack, and Charlie will walk up and see what I'm doing, then very lightly say "carrot" or "raisin" when he sees what is on the counter. I also think he has made some efforts to tell us he has to go "poop," but again, this is hard to tell because you can't always tell what he is saying and sometimes he says it so softly you can't be sure you even heard it (especially with a loud 2 year old talking in your other ear).

One thing I have noticed is that Charlie seems to enjoy interacting more than he did before. He seeks it out more, coming up to you and hugging you or putting his arms around you and looking at you and smiling. I know his gibberish is not gibberish to him -- he is really having a conversation with you and knows exactly what he is saying. He'll look right at you and speak some gibberish and then give you a big smile. Man, that smile is the most beautiful smile on the planet and just melts my heart every time I see it. The teachers and therapists at Charlie's school believe it is a motor problem. I tend to agree as I have been saying that Charlie actually reminds me of my dad in a lot of ways. My dad has now had 2 strokes and, unfortunately, his speech has declined significantly as a result. He still talks, but his words are very slurry and he is hard to understand. He knows exactly what he is saying, but it often comes out as gobbeldy-gook (or gibberish) and you have to ask him to repeat himself and really strain yourself to understand at times. My dad says he knows what he is saying and can see the words in his head, but has a hard time getting them out. I know it frustrates my dad when we don't understand him -- imagine how it feels for Charlie when he wants something to eat or drink and can't get the words out. I do think, his little brain knows what it wants to say, there is just a problem getting it out sometimes. What is super frustrating, though, is that the next day he'll turn around and say the word crystal clear. Ugh. . . Oh well, no one said this autism thing was easy.

On a biomedical note, Charlie continues on a whole slew of supplements. His last appointment with the DAN doctor was in early September. We ran another OAT test. Charlie's yeast levels came way down, but his clositridia markers almost doubled. Yikes. So, we changed his probiotic to a strain that includes lactobacillus acidopholus and Sacc B. He also takes an herbal blend of oregano, turmeric, cumin and thyme. It stinks to me, but he drinks it down bless his heart. We also doubled his Co-Q-10 and Riboflavin. We just did another OAT test last week to see how the clostridia levels are and should have the results in a couple of weeks.

We decided to challenge the GFCF diet since Adam was never convinced of any change as a result of the diet. I was starting to wonder about it too after Charlie had a couple of infractions that seemed to have no effect on him. So, after consulting with our DAN, we decided to challenge each food group, one at a time. First, we reintroduced dairy. Hallelujah! No issues with that. Charlie ate his first piece of cheese in 6 months and absolutely loved it. The school did not notice any behavioral issues either. So, we decided to reintroduce gluten. We didn't have the success we did with dairy. Charlie got very agitated, became almost rough in his sensory seeking behaviors (head butting Adam, smushing you until it was almost painful), pinched, was removed from circle time at school for pushing and pinching, and bit someone at school. And that does not even touch the funk that the poor child left behind in his diaper after eating the gluten. That, and that alone, is reason enough for me to keep the kid off gluten, at least as long as he's in pull-ups. I'll spare you the gory details, but suffice it to say, the military could use this stuff to force Bin Laden out of his hiding place in Afghanistan it smelled so atrocious. I also suspect that the DAN will recommend the Low Oxalate diet for Charlie based on his prevous OAT tests. I just hope to get the little guy's tummy straight so he can have regular, solid BMs.

A few weeks after moving up to Carolina, we participated in Autism Speaks' Walk Now for Autism. Shortly upon making the decision to move we signed up to partipate in the walk, which was held at Lowe's Motor Speedway in Concord, NC. It was quite an experience seeing so many people there on walk day. It really hits home how many families are struggling with autism every day and just how widespread it is. New research numbers from the American Academy of Pediatrics show that 1 in 91 children are diagnosed with an ASD, 1 in 58 boys are diagnosed. That, simply, is unbelievable. This number is way too high, and we just can't sit around and hope something will change. We decided to be proactive and help raise money to find a cause, a cure and to support families that live with autism every day. We are so grateful to have such generous family and friends. Their support in our journey and our efforts to raise money for this cause mean more to us than words can ever express. We are still collecting donations, but as of the current date, our team has raised over $6,500 for autism research and advocacy. We are so very blessed to have such wonderful people in our lives.

A Fabulous Vacation

We took a week-long trip to San Francisco and Sonoma, California for a combo vacation/wedding. What a great time! I can honestly say I have probably never needed a vacation so badly. I was worried about the cross country plane ride, but the kids did pretty well. Actually, Charlie did great. . . Addison was another story. That girl does not want to sit still and is not content unless she is getting into something or voicing her opinion. Thankfully, though, she fell asleep for at least half of the trip.


We did a whirlwind tour of San Francisco, Muir Woods and Sausalito. Then we headed to Sonoma for 3 nights for my cousin's wedding. Charlie was the ring bearer. I must admit I had quite a bit of anxiety about this, worrying that he would not want to walk down the aisle. I finally got over it when I realized that he's only 3 years old, and you never know what you're going to get from any 3 year old child involved in a wedding. Charlie was "spacey" during the rehearsal and had to have some help from daddy in walking down the aisle. But, about 1/4 of the way down, he saw me in the front row and walked on his own the rest of the way. I was so proud of my little boy! He seemed to have a great time the rest of the night, even dancing a little bit at the reception. He LOVES his music!


I had a reminder that in every situation, there is always a little humor and laughter. After performing his ring-bearer duties, the father of the bride escorted his daughter down the aisle and gave her away. Just as the father of the bride stepped away and handed off the bride to my cousin, Charlie said, very clearly "walk away!" I just about fell out of my seat laughing. Obviously, this was another example of delayed echolalia and Charlie had heard this phrase at some other time before. But the fact that he chose to repeat it right at that exact time had me in stitches. Thankfully most of those around us did not really catch what he said. When we told everyone afterward, it provided all of us with a good laugh. Life is always in adventure in the world of autism!


Charlie was extremely hyper during most of our trip. I'm not sure if it was the excitement of being on vacation and being in a new place, or the addition of some new supplements. Or maybe a little bit of both. We added DMG to his list of supplements about 10 days ago. DMG can increase hyperactivity so I am keeping my eye on this. We will add some folinic acid in about a week to hopefully combat this. Charlie did have some very good days while in California, especially with regard to language. In one day he said "want apple" and "want cookie." He also counted to five repeatedly and echoed other people's words frequently. He also protested a couple of times when we attempted to either dress him or put him on the potty with either a "no!" or a "not yet!" These are all very positive signs. We have noticed that the day after he receives his MB-12 shots, we tend to see increased language.


I am working hard on learning more and more about ABA. Adam and I are really trying to do more ABA with Charlie at home and throughout his day. I am also working on collecting my own ABA teaching materials so I can implement more therapy at home. This, in an of itself, is proving to be a full-time job. I watched Charlie for an hour in ABA therapy this morning. He is still working with puzzles and shape sorters a lot. Some of the shapes he seems to have down, then the next time around, he is trying to put the triangle in the circle spot, the square in the triangle spot, etc. I feel that much of this is based on his attention span. When he really pays attention, he gets it right. When he really could care less, he tends to put the piece anywhere in hopes of just getting it done. The therapist did say that in the last hour, she put a puzzle down in front of him and he put every piece in quicker than she could have done it. I know he's got it in him.


I read an article on the Huffington Post yesterday. It was quite scary. Apparently, new numbers are coming out as a result of some federally funded studies. Autism continues to be on the rise, with an estimate of 1% of all U.S. children diagnosed with an ASD. To put this in perspective, the CDC's estimates in the early 90's were 1 in 150 children suffered from ASD (with males being four times more likely to have autism). If these new numbers are to be believed, the rate has jumped to 1 in 100 in just over 10 years. Even more scary, a poll of parents puts these numbers even higher -- at a shocking 1 in 63 girls suffering from ASD and 1 in 38 boys (or 2.6% of all males being diagnosed with some form of ASD). If this doesn't scare the hell out of you, it should. These numbers are exponentially higher than just 10 years ago, which were, in turn, exponentially higher than 10 years before that.


There is a light at the end of the tunnel though. . . research showed that an increasing number of children shed their diagnosis. And, even those who don't lose their diagnosis can make significant gains. This is the news that keeps me going. I know it is possible, and I know we can get there.

"NO!"

"No!" What a wonderful word! I never thought I would be so happy to hear this word as I was when Charlie said it to me yesterday. I was trying to convince Charlie to come to me last night. He just wanted to run around and play and knew I was trying to get him ready for bed, brush teeth, etc. I told him to come here and he flopped on the couch and half-cried and clearly said "No!" twice. I was so excited to hear him talk back so clearly, shows he understood what I was saying and what I wanted to do. More importantly, he was vocalizing his own thoughts and intentions.
He also told me "wanna play with cars" when he was on the potty yesterday. Now, I know he didn't really want to play with the cars and was using this as a way to get off the potty, but, again, I was excited to hear him put together a sentence that I had never heard him say before. Tomorrow will go down as a very good day!

Summer Update

We spent the first 1/2 of the day at Clearwater Beach. It was a perfect beach day as it was overcast and not hot at all. Absolutely perfect weather. Both kids love the beach. Especially Charlie. He can sit in the waves for hours. He seems to love the sensation of the water crashing around him. (He also loves to throw sand, which we let him do as long as there is no one near that he can throw sand on!) He loves the water, whether it be the pool or the beach. He has come far with his swimming lessons and now goes under water ALL OF THE TIME. He is doing better kicking and actually swimming and has even gotten fairly comfortable floating on his back. Addison, too, has made great progress in swim lessons. She's quite the dare devil, which makes me quite nervous at times. I have posted some pictures from our fun day today. . . you can see that daddy cut Charlie's hair quite short! I'm not sure if I like it because it makes him look so much older. He's already growing up too fast for me.

I feel like I don't get much of a chance to post these days. I sat down last night and wrote out a nice, long update only to have Adam's computer boot me off and I lost almost the entire post. GRRRRR. . . . Since time is precious for us these days and I want to take advantage of this moment when both kids are actually napping (a slight miracle in our house these days), I'll make this update more brief than it was originally intended to be.

Since my last post, Charlie has had some really good days, and some not so good days. Right after my last post, he had 3 or 4 bad days in a row, with lots of verbal stimming (mumbling that I call gibberish and jokingly refer to him as my little martian), with very few actual, comprehensible words mixed in. I was downright depressed for about a week. I try hard to keep my spirts up, and overall I think I am doing quite well, but it is hard to stay upbeat when your child is having a hard time. I have to work hard to keep myself grounded and in the moment, trying hard not to worry about the future, especially since I have no idea what the future holds and I do think Charlie is making progress. It's a task in patience, faith and acceptance. I think it's the hardest part of parenting a child with ASD.

Thankfully, the last week or so has been pretty good. Charlie's verbalizations have increased. Today at the beach he repeatedly said "ocean, ocean." The other day when the babysitter arrived he looked at her and said "how's it goin?" We all got a nice chuckle from that. At bath time the other night I announced we were going to take a bath and he said "splashing in the tub!" His echo is stronger now, too, than it used to be. He is repeating what is said to him more frequently. It is so funny to me, though, how he uses his echolalia in the appropriate context. Last night I dropped a bunch of raspberries on the floor. I said "Shoot!" and leaned down to pick it up. Charlie said "Gosh dammit!" Ha! (Obviously I don't want him to say that word, but it shows that he remembers how he heard that statement and in what context it was used. He does this a lot. Soothing himself when he gets nervous -- "You'll be ok Charlie" or "she's coming right back" if Adam or I walk away.) I think the increased echoing is a good sign over all because it shows he is imitating more. It's almost like we have to go back in time developmentally, which considering we are dealing with a developmental delay is exactly what we are doing, to when Charlie first learned language. Children learn language through imitation -- they imitate the words and sounds they hear, then learn to label appropriately. At ABA and ST, his therapists have started to sign with him. They are signing "apple," "cracker" and "more" and will work in "jump" and "cookie." The theory behind this is that it will increase Charlie's vocalizations (and research supports this theory). A lot of these children, Charlie included, get so frustrated because they can't communicate their needs or wants, so we have to find alternative ways for them to communicate. The goal is to open up the pathway of communication, then hopefully the words will start coming back at an even quicker pace.

It is a painstakingly slow process, so, again, I must ask myself for patience. I must admit, it is hard to sit and watch ABA sometimes when they do ANOTHER shape shorter or the same puzzles or ask him to do the same things over and over. I was getting quite agitated until we met with the owner to discuss Charlie's progress. She is going to let us borrow a 9-cd disc set, which is a presentation on the ABA-Verbal Approach. It is a seminar hosted by Vincent Carbone, a big wig in the world of ABA and Verbal Behavior. I have watched 2 videos so far, and it does shed some more light on why they do what they do in ABA. Still, I have to remind myself every day, this is a marathon, not a sprint. It will take time.

I am also teaching myself more and more ABA as we are considering setting up an ABA home based therapy where I would be Charlie's therapist. We are still just considering this as an option, and have made no decisions yet. But, it is rather obvious that practicing law is no longer where my heart lies, and probably never was but that's a whole other topic. We have really been doing some soul searching about our approach with Charlie and what is best. Not that I am not happy with his current therapies, but I feel like we could make some changes for the best. I have also read a book about Floortime and am learning more about RDI. These are two therapies that work more on the emotional and social aspects of autism. The parents are the primary therapists in both of these approaches. I think all of these approaches, including ABA, have their strengths and would like to incorporate elements of each. I suspect we will see a plateau with ABA around a year mark, but I think it is good for now because it seems to be the best method for intial communication and attention to task. (Charlie's attention span is fleeting at best.) I have also been researching the TEACCH method, which is heavily used in North Carolina.

From a biomedical perspective, we had another appointment with the DAN doctor. Charlie's second round of tests came back. His glutathione and sulfate levels were very good. I was actually shocked because I suspected all along that Charlie would be low in glutathione. I am not sure if all of the supplements he has been taking increased his glutathione or not. Speaking of supplements, we are taking all of the same ones. Amazingly enough, Charlie drinks his juice down with no problem. Bless his little heart -- I think I would gag from all of the stuff in there! We are going to add in additional Vitamin D as studies suggest that many autistic children are low in Vitamin D, and Charlie's tests did show he was on the low end of the normal range. We are also adding in some Folinic Acid and DMG. I am a little nervous about the DMG because a lot of kids can get quite hyper from it and Charlie is already hyper, but the Folinic Acid is supposed to counteract this. We will also do a follow-up test to see if the yeast and Clostridia have responded to the first round of supplements and meds. Once we do this, we will go off Diflucan and start Nystatin for the yeast issue. (For an interesting discussion on yeast and the effects it can have on all of us, I would highly recommend Dr. Shaw's book Biomedical Treatments for Autism and PDD.) Charlie's stimming has gotten much better -- hardly any hand flapping anymore and very little circle walking. However, he has picked up some new stims -- mumbling (the gibberish I referred to before) and mouthing objects. I'm not quite sure what sensory input he is getting through his mouth, but his senses are definitely seeking some sort of feedback. He would also eat every waking hour if we let him. We have to hide food from him now and be very vigilant in stopping him from eating off other people's plates. Thankfully, he listens very well to discipline and being told what to do. The last few days have actually been better with the eating, so hopefully this is on the decline.

Adam's dad and Sue arrive tomorrow. They will be with us for a week. I think the kids will have a great time with them. Dee Dee (my mom) was here while Adam was in Alaska. The kids just love her, and Addison in particular wanted nothing to do with anyone else the entire time Dee Dee was here. It certainly would be nice to be closer to family. . . which is an option we are heavily considering now. Lots of life decisions to be made for the Taylor family.

Seeing some good days

Phew. I know it has been a long time since I have posted, but I just have not had spare time to sit in front of the computer for anything non-work related. Since my last post, Charlie has started Diflucan, his new probiotic (Lactobacillus Duo), and colostrum (to help with the bacterial infections and improve overall immunity). Every day is different, but overall I have been happy with the last few days.

Charlie has had more vocalizations including requesting cookie, chip and tomato. He also shut the door and said "close the door." We spent the 4th with some good friends, BBQing and hanging out at their pool. Charlie was clearly tired and reaching his limit. He said "wanna go home." And last night when reaching the end of his bath he said "get out of the pool." (I thought this was especially cute.) His therapists have all said he's had a good week. He has requested help and is transitioning beautifully from one task to the next. He's also been doing much better on the potty with little to no fussing.

Possibly the biggest development I have noticed is how easy it has been the past 2 days to give Charlie his medicine. Normally he would freak out and we had to struggle to hold him down. The last 2 nights he has whimpered and made some minor protests, but then takes the medicine quite well and doesn't cry. This is a huge improvement and shows that his anxiety appears to be getting better. He also does not fuss when you brush his teeth anymore. (But he still hates haircuts and not a big fan of having his nails clipped. He also went for a tux fitting and was NOT happy about it.)

Every day is different. One day will be great, and the next Charlie is back to not saying things he easily said the day before. I have to remind myself to be patient and that this is part of the process. I do feel that there is an overall improvement, though. This is very encouraging and makes me so proud of my little boy.

As I type this, the news is in the background. As has been the constant topic for the past week, they are discussing Michael Jackson's passing. Despite all of the controversy that marked MJ's last decade on this earth, I cannot and will not judge any of his actions as I never walked in his shoes and have no personal knowledge of anything that transpired in his life. I always felt sorry for him as he never appeared to be truly happy, despite his almost incomprehensible talent and fame. Not only did he make people happy through his music, he was also a humanitarian, breaking the world record for most charities supported by a pop star. MJ was a part of my childhood. I remember listening to the Thriller album over and over, watching the Thriller video (and being scared out of my wits), and dancing to Beat It in my 4th grade talent show. Because he was such an integral part of my adolescent world and was such a gifted musician, I will miss him. I have been listening to one of his songs over and over this last week. It reminds me of Charlie, and about all that I love and cherish. I think the words are profound and thank MJ for writing this:

There's a place in your heart
and I know that it is love.
And this place could be much brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll find there's no hurt or sorrow

There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space
Make a better place.

Yeast, Clostridia and Glutathione . . . Oh My. . .

We officially have issues. Charlie had a follow-up appointment with his DAN doctor on Monday. The results of the OAT (Organic Acid Test) and the stool (sorry to talk about poop, but, hey, this is our world right now) are back. However, as our DAN doctor said, in this field bad news is really good news because it means we have something to work on and hopefully symptoms will improve.

Charlie has yeast. . . and lots of it. He also shows high markers for the Clostridia bacteria. I've been reading about this in all of the biomedical books and articles, and darn if Charlie doesn't meet the prototype of autistic children. These kids have some serious gut issues, most likely resulting from immune deficiencies.

What the heck does yeast or the gut have to do with autism?? That is what I said the first time I heard of this. But, I have learned, everything is connected in our body and there is a direct connection between the gut, the immune system and the brain. This is where biomedical treatments come into play. There is a lot of research on this. Discover magazine published an article that is straightforward and easy to follow, "Understanding Autism, The Answer May Lie in the Gut Not in the Head". You can read the article here. Our DAN doctor also explains the biomedical protocol and his approach very succinctly on his website (here).

Now that we have Charlie's test results back, we are changing some elements of his treatment plan. His current supplements will remain the same, with the exception of a change in his probiotic. In addition, we are also going to start a prescriptive anti-fungal, Diflucan. My first preference was to treat the yeast naturally with various natural anti-fungals, probiotics and digestive enzymes. However, our DAN doctor recommended a prescriptive anti-fungal in this case. I trust his opinion as he also prefers the natural method. He felt, though, that in cases where there is a lot of yeast, natural anti-fungals usually don't get the job done. Charlie will take Diflucan for at least a month (not sure for exactly how long at this point) and we will monitor his liver and kidneys the entire time he is on it. (Diflucan over all is very safe, but for long term use, the liver has to be checked periodically. Our DAN doctor said if the liver enzymes are affected, he'll take Charlie off the Diflucan and the enzymes will return to normal with no harm done.)

When we're done with the Diflucan, we'll likely switch to natural anti-fungals to try to keep the yeast at bay as best we can. I read posts from parents dealing with their children's yeast almost daily. It can be a long and grueling process. Our lovely friend Candida can be quite pesky and resistant and does not give up easily. Not only that, but as the yeast is killed, it often releases toxins which create a die-off effect. Sometimes this effect is quite severe, causing drastic changes in behaviors, aggression, etc. Some children look and act like they are actually drunk. (I won't get into the bodily processes that may be affected. Suffice it to say that the yeast has to come out somehow. I'll let your imagination run with that.) I'm not looking forward to this, but it's actually not a bad sign if it does occur. If Charlie has significant side effects, we'll administer activated charcoal which soaks up the toxins and is then passed in the stool (here I am talking about poop again).

The clostridia is another problem we have to deal with right away. You have to treat yeast and clostridia at the same time. If you only treat one, the other one tends to flourish. We will be giving Charlie a very potent brand of probiotics, Lactobacillus Duo, that will help combat the clostridia. We'll also supplement with colostrum to help fight off infections. Colostrum aids immune and digestive function.

There were some other results that caused some concern, including a low 2-oxoglutaric acid level which may be indicative of high levels of ammonia. Our DAN doctor did a blood draw to check for this. We will supplement alpha ketoglutaric acid to combat this.

Many of the results also suggest Charlie's glutathione production may be low. We are testing blood for this as well. High levels of succinic and glutaric acid were also detected. We'll supplement with riboflavin and CoQ10 for this. Finally, Charlie's tartaric acid was extremely high. The DAN doctor said it was the highest he thinks he has ever seen, which is significant considering he has treated many, many ASD children. His arabinose levels were also very high (the DAN said in the top 3 of any he has ever seen). This is another indicator of yeast.

Adam and I feel like alchemists when we prepare Charlie's supplements every day. It's a bit overwhelming keeping all of this straight at times, although you do get used to it. We keep a checklist on the fridge so we can make sure he gets all of his supplements according to schedule. Once we implement all of the new supplements, Charlie's new supplement schedule looks like this:



Morning:

1 tsp CLO

1 capsule Nu-Thera

1 capsule New Beginnings AntiOxidant formula

1 capsule Lacto Duo

Calcium Supplement

1 capsule alpha ketoglutaric acid

1 capsule of CoQ10



Mid-Morning

1 capsule zinc

1/2 capsule Riboflavin

1 tsp colostrum



Afternoon

1 tsp CLO

1 capsule Nu Thera

1 capsule alpha ketoglutaric acid

1 capsule CoQ10



Evening

1 capsule Lacto Duo

1/2 capsule Riboflavin

1 tsp colostrum

Diflucan



Every 3 days:

Methyl B12 shot (Charlie has received 4 shots so far. We do them at home and it is very easy. We put some numbing cream on first, then you just inject in the buttock. If we do it when Charlie is asleep, he doesn't even wake up.)

As for therapy, Charlie is doing quite well. He is used to his therapists and seems to really enjoy his therapies. His receptive language skills at ABA are quite good and he does what he is asked. He has mastered a few different puzzles and some of the shape sorters. His therapists are starting to sign with him some. They say this often spurs more vocalizations in verbal children. At OT, his therapists report that he is happy to be there, doesn't complain when he is taken to the desk to work on fine motor skills and handles transitions well.

I have noticed that Charlie's social skills need a lot of work. We've been to a couple of birthday parties in the last 2 weeks. He stays on the perimeter and does not seem aware of what the other kids are doing. He does not sit still and has a very poor attention span. At one party, the kids were playing a dodge-ball type game with lots of balls. Charlie was just walking amongst them, completely oblivious that a game was even going on. It was actually kind of funny. It's like he is doing his own thing and really could care less what the other kids are doing. Same thing in the tae kwon do classes we tried. I think it's a little too soon for some of these activities for Charlie, but I feel confident that we will get there.

Charlie's verbalization has improved somewhat. He has made numerous requests to go swimming. He also told Adam "not yet" when he was told to put on his pajamas. Tonight, I was having a conversation with Charlie about how big boys use the potty. I asked him "do you understand?" He looked right at me and said, "I understand." I know you do, buddy.

Good-bye, Dear Friend

In light of the events that have transpired in our family this last week, I'm going to take a break from the subject of autism for purposes of this post. Bo was a very special member of our family. The kids adored him, almost as much as he adored them. It is with very heavy hearts that we bade him good-bye on June 12, 2009. We know he is in heaven chasing squirrels and swimming in the ocean. We miss you, buddy.


Dear Bo,

I remember the first time I met you. You had the kindest eyes and the most gentle demeanor I had ever seen in any animal. You won my heart at first glance. I knew you were special.

As time passed, I was amazed at how big your heart was. You wanted nothing but happiness surrounding you. The idea of disappointing your humans was almost too much for you to bear. You were full of compassion and would gladly lend your head to be stroked if someone was feeling pain or was upset. You, too, needed encouragement to make sure all was well with your family.

I will never forget jogging with you. Somehow, you always made the run seem more bearable just by your presence beside me. You were always up for a walk, but you were never pushy in requesting one. You simply stood with a look of hope and anticipation as we laced up our shoes. One look at you, and it was impossible not to invite you along.

I have never seen pure joy as I saw in you when we would visit the NC mountains, where you loved nothing more than to run, sniff and swim in the creek. And, in your young and "middle-aged" days, how you would love to run by the 4-wheeler and bark in pure joy and excitement just at being alive. I always marveled at your speed and your endurance. You were truly a sight to behold. I spent half my time on the ride looking at you. You brought such happiness just to see the expression on your face. I will never forget it.

I still smile at the thought of a relatively large dog turning into a quivering ball of nerves at the slightest hint of a thunderstorm. You made the pug feel like a giant during those times, as it was the only time she "out toughed" you. Secretly, although I hated seeing you in distress, I loved it when you would crawl in bed with me to be cuddled and reassured as it was the only time you laid in bed with me.

You made us stop and appreciate the small things . You taught us how to enjoy the minute and the seemingly mundane. Just watching you roll in the grass, or in the sand (as you loved to do whenever we took you to the beach much to my chagrin at the time) would make me forget about my worries. You did everything 100%, with your whole body and soul. You never did anything without putting all of yourself into it.

Thank you for being the true guardian of my children. I always knew you would be great with kids, but you exceeded my expectations in every way. You were patient beyond measure, allowing the kids to roll, lay, step, sit, hug, etc on you to their heart's content. You never showed a sign of annoyance. I would venture to say that you loved having them this close to you. What a protector you were when both kids were so small, standing between them and anyone or anything you did not know or perceived as a threat, laying beside them on the floor as they learned to sit and crawl. I could almost feel your influence on them as you cheered them on to learn and grow. Thank you for loving them. Thank you for being their first pet and, therefore, always holding a special place in their heart.

Saying good-bye to you was so incredibly painful. I always knew the day would come, especially as you grew older and, in the past weeks, became visibly ill. Somehow I thought this would help prepare me, but in the end, it did not. I think because I knew you were so special, it was so difficult to think of my world without you. I have to stop myself from looking for you or listening for you, as it has become habit over the years. My mind still plays tricks on me, making me think I hear you walking around or see you move out of the corner of my eye. It will take my brain and my soul a little while to get used to this. The pug, too, is having a hard time adjusting to the absence of her long-time friend. It feels too quiet around here.

We were so blessed to share in your life, to be chosen to be your family. You brought so much to us and made us a more loving family. You never asked for anything other than our love and an occasional scratch behind the ears. You showed gratitude for everything, and you always gave more than you took. You were the icon of unconditional love.

Good-bye, dear friend. One day we will see you at the rainbow bridge.

Gettin' In the Swing of Things

We are in the midst of Charlie's summer therapy schedule and all is going well so far. Charlie completed his second week of ABA and speech therapy. We have already seen some progress in ABA and OT (a little too early to really tell with ST just yet). Charlie listens well and does what is asked of him in ABA. He has also had more spontaneous verbalizations with no prompting, which is good. (For example, saying caterpillar when he sees a picture of a caterpillar.) He is also doing better with the shape sorter and can now put in most of the shapes in the right hole without using trial and error. He still is not a big fan of the puzzle. It's kind of funny to watch him when they bust out the puzzle. She hands him a piece and you can just see on his face that he is not that into it. He just slams it down on the puzzle board and hopes it will be over. Of course, they don't let him get off that easy. In OT he is working on following two step directions. He is doing well, but sometimes has to be prompted or reminded of the second step after he completes the first step.

Adam and I have observed numerous ABA sessions. I am very impressed with the therapists and the center. It seems much more natural than I had originally thought. It is obvious ABA has come a long way in the last decade or so. The therapists find ways to work in drills into play time so it really seems more like she is initiating play with Charlie rather than sitting him down and drilling him. Charlie seems to enjoy going. Thankfully Charlie has not repeated any four letter phrases since the first day when he repeatedly said "What the hell? What the hell?" (I'm not even going to deny that he got that from me. Guess you have to watch your language even more when you have an echolaliac child.)

I think Charlie has had a good week overall. He has had more spontaneous words than the last few weeks. Yesterday he even told me "Want to go in the water. Want to go in the pool." He seems to pay attention more when you talk to him or point something out. I have been able to get his attention and point out the full moon and the stars the last few nights. He looked at where I pointed and showed genuine interest.

We've also had a lot of fun this past week. We had a big neighborhood party to celebrate the last day of school. They had a big waterslide, and Charlie enjoyed going down with it with Adam. (Addison seemed to want to go, too, but mommy thought she was just a tad too small for it.) Both kids enjoyed snow cones . . . a first for both. Our neighbor also had a "graduation" party, and Charlie and Addison had a blast swimming and going down yet another big water slide. (This time Addison was allowed to go and she absolutely LOVED it. She has no fear. I'm in trouble.) Today we went to a birthday party for one of the kids in our playgroup. Charlie and Addison both decided to go in the baby pool fully clothed. I decided it was too much work to keep them out so I just let them have fun.

While Charlie does appear to have a good time at these events, he pays little to no attention to the other kids. However, he also did not seem bothered by playing near them or sharing the baby pools with any of the children. Hopefully we can work a little more on his socialization skills over the next few months.

I got a very nice card from three of my wonderful friends from law school today, Tomee, Rachel and Hilary. In it was a gift card to Whole Foods to help us with the organic and GFCF diet we have begun. I can't tell you how touched I was to receive this and how thoughtful it was. It brought tears to our eyes to feel such support. A couple weeks ago we also got a big box of GFCF goodies from some of the moms in my MOMS Club. We are so lucky to have such wonderful people in our lives.

Today, while waiting for Charlie in OT, I was struck, once again, by how large of a spectrum ASD really is. It really runs the gamut. I saw a quote that is right on point: "If you have met one kid with autism, you've met one kid with autism." Enough said.

On a sad note, our beloved lab Bo appears to be facing his final days. We are very sad and depressed about this as he has been an absolute wonderful friend and pet to us. Since Charlie has been diagnosed, I swear Bo seems to sleep in there more than he did before. I have always thought that animals are very intuitive, and Bo has always been so. I know he will watch over Charlie when it does come his time to leave us. Addison will not know what to do without her precious "BoBo" who she usually calls for in the morning before she ever calls "mama!" We were able to get some good pictures of Bo in the water a couple weeks ago. We asked Charlie to give him a kiss, and he leaned over and kissed him on the head. One day I will have to be sure to let the kids know that their first pet will likely be the BEST pet they will ever have. We love you Bo.

First Week of ABA

Charlie is officially the busiest toddler I know. ABA therapy started this week, and we have run the little man ragged. (He fall asleep at 6:20 this evening. We had no success in trying to wake him for dinner, he was out cold. Hopefully he won't wake up at 4:00 a.m.!) Charlie will be receiving 10 hours of ABA therapy a week. In the world of ASD, this is actually not a lot of ABA hours. Many children go for 20 + hours a week. However, this was the number of hours the owner suggested to us, so hopefully she thinks this is sufficient at least for now. Charlie's weekly schedule looks like this:

Monday: ST 1:30-2:30 (starts June 1)
OT: 2:30-3:30
Tuesday: ABA: 8:00 - 12:00
Wednesday: ABA: 8:00 - 10:00
Thursday: ABA: 8:00 - 12:00
ST: 3:00 - 4:00
OT: 4:00 - 5:00
Friday: Music Class 10:30 - 11:15 (starting June 12)
Saturday: Swimming lessons
Sunday: Soccer (starting June 14)

Somehow, come August, we are supposed to mix school into this equation. Whew. Speaking of school, Adam and I are really brainstorming over the best fit for Charlie for next year. We had been planning on either continuing on at the JCC, which is a great pre-school, or the public pre-school EELP program. In Florida, starting at 3, children with disabilities and developmental delays can go into the public pre-school program. The school system will do an evaluation to determine what services the child needs, then sit down with the parents and develop an IEP to map out the services and education plan for the child for the year. There are 2 options in the public school system here -- a spectrum class, or the EELP class. The spectrum class, from what I am told, is kids on the spectrum (hence, the name). From what I have been told, it usually includes more severely autistic children, many of whom may be non-verbal. Charlie's occupational therapist does not think a spectrum class would be a good fit for him. She believes he would be one of the highest functioning and, therefore, would not get much out of it. Not to mention, he would be observing some severe children with severe behavioral issues and may start immitating the behaviors. Numerous people, therapists and other parents, have told me if we go the public school route to push for the EELP program. The EELP program is a shmorgasboard of children with varying diagnoses. There are some good EELP programs, then there are some that are basically glorified babysitting. You don't know what you're going to get until you get there. Unfortunately, they won't allow me to observe an EELP class at our local elementary school until they have already started evaluating Charlie.

On the recommendation of a number of people, including Dr. Carnavale, Adam and I (and the kids) toured Sydney's School for Autism this week. It is the only school in Tampa servicing pre-school autistic children. Frankly, I went in with fairly low expectations. I thought it was autistic children only, but was highly surprised to learn, over half of the children are non-autistic (or neuro typical). This was a huge plus to me. They have a regular pre-school curriculum that is age appropriate for the children. The school provides ABA therapy which the autistic children receive every day, approximately 5 hours a day (some of this is 1:1, some in a group setting). Also, each autistic child has an aide to help them through the day to keep them on focus and involved with the class. Speech therapy is provided through the local school district and there is also some play therapy and music therapy included. There is not traditional OT, but there are elements of OT included as well. However, what impressed me the most is that each autistic child is paired with a non-autistic child to play and interact with througout the day. They work with the non-autistic child to initiate play and socialization with the autistic child. I have to admit, I absolutely LOVE this concept. Through none of his other therapies will Charlie receive socialization like this, in a NATURAL setting with a CHILD HIS OWN AGE. ABA, OT and ST are great, and are needed, but, just as important, if not more, is socialization.

As Adam can tell you, I have been very on edge this entire week. I admit, I have been feeling pretty down this week. We have just been so busy arranging all of Charlie's therapies that I have not put a lot of thought into the socialization aspect of autism. I knew it was a concern, but for some reason, this week it hit me hard. I have been reading a lot about this, and think it is every bit as important as all of the other therapies Charlie is already doing. In fact, really it's more important as this, more than anything, will affect his lifetime happiness and ability to make his way in this world. I know that many autistic people find socialization very stressful and challenging. I believe we have to start NOW working on these skills. Yes, Charlie is only 3, but this is the critical time in his development where he is the most influenced by observing and imitating his peers. Right now, Charlie has very little to do with other children except for those he knows very well. Even then, he'll get excited to see them and will talk about them at home, but when he is with them, he does not interact with them. Even today at swim lessons I observed him as he repeatedly put distance between himself and the boy sitting next to him. The instructor kept scooting him back over to sit side by side, and Charlie would inevitably scoot back in the other direction. He even turned his back towards the boy on a few occasions. He has been doing this since we started at this swim school. Also, today at the park, a very social little boy got too close and Charlie got angry and pulled his hair. (Thankfully, not very hard and the little boy didn't even cry, but it is plain to see that social situations are stressful for Charlie sometimes.) The socialization therapy that Sydney's offers is very enticing and has me very interested so much, in spite of the absolutely astronomical tuition the school charges.

We still have a lot to think about, but we are considering Sydney's very seriously. When I first suspected Charlie had autism, THIS is what worried me so much. I was not very concerned about his academic future as much as his social one. I just don't want him growing up isolated with no friends. I am reading a book now about behavioral interventions for autistic children. The longest chapter in the book discusses working on social skills. The author discusses how many austitic children sit alone at lunch, are alone at recess and any other "free time" in the classroom. They report interest in joining groups of children, but don't know how to do it or are too afraid to try. I just can't stand this thought without knowing we tried everything we could for Charlie. I just want him to be happy. I don't care about the rest, that will come in due time.

To that end, we signed Charlie up for soccer at the local YMCA. His "games" (if you can call it that for a 3 year old) will start in June. Team sports are good for him right now. We also signed Charlie and Addison up for music classes this summer at one of the local children gyms in our area. Charlie and Addison both love music and dancing, so hopefully they will enjoy this. They get to play instruments and dance in the class. I figure it's another form of music therapy. We are also strongly considering signing up Charlie for karate classes. There is a school in Tampa that has classes just for autistic and special needs children. I have read a lot about martial arts and autism. In fact, there was an article in last week's paper about a little boy who is autistic and has just blossomed after taking a year of Tae Kwon Do classes. I am a big believer in martial arts, having trained in it myself. I was actually in the process of exploring classes for Charlie before autism even entered the picture. Autistic people often flourish in martial arts because it is structured and they can gain a real sense of self-esteem and confidence. Also, it is an extension of OT as it exercises every muscle group and in children's classes, they often do obstacle courses and other fun games to help with hand-eye coordination.

I know, you read all this and think, they are running that poor boy ragged. I even worry about that. But, I think in this instance, we have to maximize every possible potential. The more that Charlie is out there participating in the world, the better. I am trying to pick activities he really likes. He likes sports, particulary kicking and throwing balls, so hopefully soccer will be a hit. He loves music and it really seems to relax him, so the music class was a no-brainer. I think, given some time, he could really learn to like karate as well.

Adam and I will have to think very hard about school options for next year and go with what we think is best for Charlie.

On a positive note, Charlie did very well in his first week of ABA. After his second day of ABA, he came up to me and said "Want a prune." He used to request quite frequently, but now it is rare. And yes, he likes prunes. . . in fact, loves them. He also filled in the spaces of the alphabet sone with me as well as Take Me Out to the Ballgame. Of course, autism is so frustrating because he did this for me on Wednesday, but then would not do it the following day. Every day is different.

It struck me this evening that we are really only about 2 months into this. Charlie was just formally diagnosed this month on May 4. Although I strongly suspected it at his birthday party in April, it really wasn't until the following week that I was sure of it and right around then is when we started the GFCF diet. Boy, how things have changed in a very short amount of time. I feel like it has been much longer, probably because we have been so busy. I do feel like Charlie's receptive language skills are better. He does not space out as bad and you usually only have to say his name once to get his attention. He also usually listens to instructions after only being told one time. His eye contact is also better. He still flaps his hands, but it may have decreased somewhat. His finger flapping (or hand puppets) have definitely decreased. He still has visual stims where he puts his fingers up to his eyes and wiggles them or looks at his fingers out of the corners of his eyes. He has also started mouthing objects a lot lately. For about 1 1/2 weeks he started a really nasty habit of sticking his hands down the back of his pull-up. We got on him about this one and told him to take his hand out. Thankfully, he listened well and now is not doing it very much. He does seem to be slightly more aggravated and has had some aggression towards his sister and others. It's like he just gets overloaded with noise and has a sudden burst of temper, grabs someone and squeezes, and then it's over almost as soon as it started. I do give him a grilling every time he pushes his sister or pulls her hair. He is in for a world of hurt when that girl gets a little older and whacks him back. I think she's going to be a pistol.

I am hoping this week brings a little more peace for me. I have to work at not feeling so edgy and try to not let my mind wander too much. We just need to pick a path and go with it, then trust that it will all work out.

The DAN! Doctor

Whew -- what a week! I am mentally and physically exhausted from it. Thank goodness today was a holiday so we had an extra day to recover.

I got a call on Wednesday afternoon that the DAN! doctor (the only one in Tampa) had a cancellation on Thursday and therefore had an unexpected opening. I jumped up for joy! Originally, we could not get in to see him until October so this was a nice surprise. Being the only DAN!/autism biomedical doctor in the area, his schedule stays pretty full. Needless to say, we jumped on the appointment and went to see him on Thursday. Unfortunately, Charlie was quite tired after his last day of preschool party and running around with me. So, he was definitely on the crabby side when we got to the doctor's office. . . and Miss Addison just wanted to stay in the waiting room with all of the fun toys and movies. I thought they were going to kick us out before we even had a chance to meet with the doctor.

Dr. Berger (or Dr. David as he likes to be called) was very nice and very thorough. He asked lots of questions about Charlie's medical background and his behaviors. We discussed his current supplements, all of which he approved. He did want Charlie to start having nightly Epsom Salt baths with 2 cups of Epsom salt (we were previously doing every other night with 1 cup of Epsom Salts). He also wants us to increase the Cod Liver Oil to 2 tsps a day (we have been doing 1 tsp). He ordered some tests for Charlie, an Organic Acid Test (or OAT test -- this is a urine test) and a comprehensive stool analysis to test for bacteria, yeast, etc. From what I have read, these are the standard initial tests. In fact, I had already ordered some kits from Great Plains laboratory and planned on sending the samples in myself per the 12 week action plan on autismactionplan.org. Dr. Berger and I also discussed Methyl B-12 shots. I have been reading about this a lot. It is a very popular treatment for ASD, and is very safe. Parents are reporting lots of improvements, including increased language, better eye contact and awareness. I admit I am a little nervous about giving Charlie shots, but when he showed me the needle and explained the process to me, it really seems pretty easy and harmless. The needle is so small, and you give them the shot in the fatty part of the buttock so most kids don't feel it or feel very little. In fact, on one of my yahoo groups, the parents report they give their kids the shots at night and they don't even wake up. If there is a pain issue, there is some numbing cream you can apply before the shot so the child won't even feel it. The goal is to inject into the fat area as this will allow for slow absorption over three days as opposed to injecting into the muscle where the entire amount would be "used up" by the body within a day. Charlie will start out getting one shot every three days. The pharmacy will ship them to us this week (they come all ready to go, you just refrigerate and bring to room temp before administering), so we'll likely start the shots this weekend. We have a follow up with the doctor in late June when the lab results should be in and we can make some determinations about treating for yeast and whatever else the labs may show.

For information about Methyl-B12, check out Dr. Neubrander's site at http://www.drneubrander.com/dev/index.html. Dr. Neubrander pioneered the use of Methyl B-12 as a biomedical treatment for autism and is a big force behind HBOT treatment as well, which also has rave reviews but is extremely expensive. Methyl-B12 is very safe since it is a water soluble vitamin, and therefore, any excess in the body is eliminated through urine. Another plus is that it's only $3 per shot, so pretty reasonable, and as Dr. Berger said, a great place to start biomedical treatment.

Charlie has been doing well. He has had some more bursts of temper, but they are quick and usually over almost as soon as they start. He has been very frustrated the last few days because Adam and I have been making him use his words to request things. He has gotten into the habit of just reaching up and taking things. We try to make him say what he wants and/or hold up the item and model the word first for him to repeat. Sometimes he says the word, sometimes he doesn't. This is an exercise in patience for me. It is extremely frustrating because I know he KNOWS what the word means, and I know he can say the word. . . it's like he can't get the word out at times or just doesn't get the whole idea of requesting or using words for communication. He continues to be echolaliac, but he does use it in the right context on many occasions. For example, the other day we were talking with our neighbors and Adam left to go get something to drink. Charlie got a little upset to see his daddy walk away and said to himself "He'll be right back." Of course this is what I have said to him before, but he often does this, where he will repeat the phrase in the right context. This leads me to believe that he does understand the words and what is being said to him. It will be interesting to see how this resolves when he starts ABA therapy . . . which he starts tomorrow! He will be in therapy for 4 hours tomorrow. Whew!

I just finished reading Temple Grandin's book Thinking in Pictures. This was much better than her first book Emergence and is a fascinating read into her mind as a person living with autism. She discusses in detail how she is a visual thinker, explaining her virtual DVD catalog of memories and how she can rotate something, move parts, etc in her mind. She does not think in language, but in pictures. She has a hard time understanding non-autistic verbal thinkers and how they can't "see" what she sees in blueprints and construction. She practices everything in her mind and designs all of her livestock equipment in her head. She can rotate the picture and see every angle of the equipment in her brain. She also remembers things in pictures. She also discusses her sensory issues and a lot of the sensory problems ASD people have, as well as their issues with socialization. She had to be taught social cues as she was oblivious to these with the one exception of tone of voice. She also had to be taught right from wrong and keeps lists in her mind of everything she has learned so now she can function socially. It is an absolute must read in my opinion for anyone who knows or has a loved one on the spectrum. I don't know if Charlie is a visual thinker yet or a math/musical thinker. . . or what is going on in his beautiful little head, but Grandin explains that all autistic people learn by association. It is things like this that will hopefully help us to identify and appreciate our little boy.

This article was posted on one of the yahoo groups I am a member of. I really love it as too many times, the negative aspects of autism are the focus. These are all traits for which everyone of us should aspire.

Top 10 Terrific Traits of Autistic People

If you're sick of hearing about all the "deficits" challenging people on the autism spectrum, join the club. But for every down side to autism, there seems to be a positive -- an unusual trait that rarely appears among the "typical" community, but shines out among autistic folk. These plusses are well worth celebrating.

1. Autistic People Rarely Lie
We all claim to value the truth, but almost all of us tell little white lies. All, that is, except people on the autism spectrum. To them, truth is truth -- and a good word from a person on the spectrum is the real deal.

2. People on the Autism Spectrum Live in the Moment
How often do typical people fail to notice what's in front of their eyes because they're distracted by social cues or random chitchat? People on the autism spectrum truly attend to the sensory input that surrounds them. Many have achieved the ideal of mindfulness.

3. People with Autism Rarely Judge Others
Who's fatter? Richer? Smarter? For people on the autism spectrum, these distinctions hold much less importance than for typical folks. In fact, people on the spectrum often see through such surface appearances to discover the real person.

4. Autistic People are Passionate
Of course, not all autistic people are alike. But many are truly passionate about the things, ideas and people in their lives. How many "typical" people can say the same?

5. People with Autism Are Not Tied to Social Expectations
If you've ever bought a car, played a game or joined a club to fit in, you know how hard it is to be true to yourself. But for people with autism, social expectations can be honestly irrelevant. What matters is true liking, interest and passion -- not keeping up with the Joneses.

6. People with Autism Have Terrific Memories
How often do typical people forget directions, or fail to take note of colors, names, and other details? People on the autism spectrum are often much more tuned in to details. They may have a much better memory than their typical peers for all kind of critical details.

7. Autistic People Are Less Materialistic
Of course, this is not universally true -- but in general, people with autism are far less concerned with outward appearance than their typical peers. As a result, they worry less about brand names, hairstyles and other expensive but unimportant externals than most people do.

8. Autistic People Play Fewer Head Games
Who was that woman, and why were you looking at her? I know I TOLD you I didn't mind if you went out, but why did you believe me? Most autistic people don't play games like these -- and they assume that you won't either. It's a refreshing and wonderful change from the Peyton Place emotional roller coaster that mars too many typical relationships!

9. Autistic People Have Fewer Hidden Agendas
Most of the time, if a person on the autism spectrum tells you what he wants -- he is telling you what he wants. No need to beat around the bush, second guess, and hope you're reading between the lines!

10. People with Autism Open New Doors for Neurotypicals
For some of us neurotypicals, having an autistic person in our lives has had a profound positive impact on our perceptions, beliefs and expectations. For me, at least, being the mom of a son on the autism spectrum has released me from a lifetime of "should" -- and offered me a new world of "is."

"I know of nobody who is purely Autistic or purely neurotypical. Even God had some Autistic moments, which is why the planets all spin." ~ Jerry Newport

Another possible diagnosis?!?

We've been busy here in Tampa. . . .but what else is new? :) We had a nice weekend. Charlie seems very happy and content with less tantrums, not that tantrums were ever a big deal for us (thank goodness). He does continue to get annoyed with his sister from time to time when she is loud (which is pretty often), and we've had to scold him for pulling her hair a few times. But, over all he seems more laid back with her the last couple of days. Now he just scowls and gives her a funny look when she is being loud or when she is bothering him. Yesterday, he even went up and hugged her (and not a bear hug) and almost kissed her on the head. Very sweet.

Although Charlie has been in a happy mood, we did see a lot of stimming this weekend -- more spinning, walking in circles, pacing, finger dancing and toe walking. He's also been mumbling a lot more, but we've also seen more language which is good. This weekend during a thunderstorm he said "hear the thunder" and has requested apple juice and water. He still tries to get everything himself without asking first. We are working hard to make him use his words to request and not just attempt to get everything himself. He has even taken to climbing up on the bar stools and almost crawling on top of the kitchen counter to get to cups of ice water he wants.

On a funny note, we have learned that Charlie absolutely LOVES the song Viva la Vida by Coldplay. I have it downloaded on my Ipod. When you turn that song on, Charlie will come running and dance to it. He loves a lot of music, but that song in particular seems to be his favorite.

Speaking of things my kids love, my daugther has become a shoe freak!! She absolutely loves to wear her shoes and will bring them to you yelling "shoes! shoes!" She even tries to put them on herself and has now taken to bringing me socks and trying to get the socks on my feet. It's pretty adorable if I say so myself. . . although it makes me nervous for our financial future to have a possible shoe fanatic in the making.

I stumbled across a VERY useful website a few days ago called autismactionplan.org. It is a website run by a DAN! doctor, Dr. Kurt Woeller, in California with a very good reputation. This is a great resource. It is almost like having a DAN! doctor in your living room with you. Once you join, you get access to all of his materials on the site, including a 12 week action plan for biomedical interventions, doctor-parent chat forums where he answers questions about symptoms, supplements, dosages, etc, information regarding lab testing, etc. He even has weekly web video chats where you can chat with him live, type in your questions and he answers right there on the spot. I participated in a live chat on Monday night, and it was extremely helpful. He answered my questions about supplements and tests and numerous other parents' questions. I am so glad I found this site as I now have a resource with experience, at least until I can get in with the DAN! doctor here in Tampa. We have an appointment with him in October.

Yesterday Charlie had an appointment with the neurologist. The developmental pediatrician recommended we go see a neurologist since Charlie's regression was later than average. They did an EEG (which came back normal). Of course Charlie did not like getting all of the electrodes stuck to his head and being held down by a strange woman. He protested pretty forcefully, but then I was able to hold him and rock. He calmed down right away and did quite nicely for the remainder of the test. The neurologist really didn't add much to our treatment plan in my opinion. In fact, at first she irritated me quite a bit. She spent 5 minutes in the room with us, saw that Charlie had been diagnosed in the mild-moderate category and said she would consider him more in the moderate category. Then she saw that he does readily listen to and comply with instructions and obviously understand what is being said to him. He also repeated a couple words back to her. At that point she said he was probably more mild than she had originally thought. She did suggest the GF/CF diet and a multivitamin (we are already doing this). She also said to make sure he is getting enough iron and she also highly recommended magnesium. I had just ordered some magnesium from New Beginnings a few days before this appointment, and we have been doing Epsom salt baths, which do seem to be quite calming. She also recommended melatonin if we are having a lot of troubles with sleeping. Charlie does have some issues in this area, but I think they are getting better so I am going to hold off on the melatonin for a little while. He also had his blood drawn to test for heavy metals and CBC. I'm not sure how useful this will be as I have read that blood testing for heavy metals is the least accurate mode of testing, but I guess it's a starting point.

At the end of the appointment, she handed me a paper and said it is possible that Charlie has MSDD (multi-sensory developmental disorder) instead of autism. I had never heard this term before. The symptoms are VERY similar to autism and MSDD kids exhibit many of the same behaviors and sensory problems as ASD kids. The only real difference noted was that MSDD kids tend to respond better to therapy and do no have the same level of cognitive impairment as ASD kids. Their tendency to avoid social interaction or to withdraw stems more from unpleasant sensory experiences rather than a lack of interest in others. This does make me wonder about Charlie because he often does seem interested in other people and can be very social at times. We really have no way of knowing at this point whether he could be considered MSDD, and it does not matter as the therapies and interventions are all the same.

Charlie is doing great on his supplements so far (multivitamin, CLO, calcium and probiotics). The probiotics seem to have really helped his tummy and, thankfully, don't seem to have any taste as he gobbles them up in fruit, applesauce, juice no problem -- can't say the same for the multivitamin in the taste category. We'll start the calcium plus magnesium next, then we'll supplement with a little extra zinc and an anti-oxidant supplement which Dr. Woeller recommends.

ABA Assessment

We've had a busy week. . .Is it Friday yet?? :)

Monday was Charlie's ABA assessment. Unfortunately, Charlie did not nap on Sunday and got up about 5:30 a.m. on Monday so he was very tired when it came time for his appointment. He had big circles under his eyes, and, by the end of the assessment looked like he could easily fall asleep in the desk chair. He started off throwing quite a tantrum. I've never seen these behaviors in Charlie before. We walked by the play area to the back office for the assessment. Charlie was not happy with this. He wanted to play, not go sit in some stuffy office. He let us know about his displeasure. He kept going up to the owner/therapist who was doing the assessment and tried to grab her out of the chair so she would open the door. He hit her, pulled her hair, screamed at her, etc. She ignored him, even as he hit her and pulled her hair. She said that is what they do, they ignore the bad behaviors (unless it causes physical pain to the therapist) until the child quiets down. At that time, they thank them for being quiet and give them positive feedback. I just sat there kind of stunned as I had never seen Charlie like that before. (However, later in the day he got mad at me and pulled my hair a couple of times. I did not ignore it because it DID hurt!!!) I am still wondering if we are seeing yeast die-off or if he was just tired. . . or probably a little bit of both. I looked back at Jenny McCarthy's book, Healing and Preventing Autism, and some of the symptoms for yeast die-off include tantrums, aggression and hitting. It is enough to make me wonder. Thankfully, the tantrums seemed to cease by Tuesday.

The ABA assessment was informative. Charlie did very good with verbal instructions and did everything he was asked to do. He also did well in matching 3-dimensional objects (such as a sock to a sock, or a toy car to a toy car, block to block, etc). However, he would not even take the time to look at pictures to match those. He literally took the picture out of her hand and just threw it on top of another without even really looking at it. Obviously, he scored very low (if he even scored at all) in the requesting category since he does not ask questions and rarely tells us what he wants. She noted that a lot of the other areas where he scored on the lower end were largely due to lack of compliance (no attention span or he just did not want to do what was being asked of him). She said he is in a much better position than most of the kids that come to therapy because he already has the skills, we just have to work on his compliance and draw him back out again.

Charlie had his second OT session today. The therapist said he did great and listened to all of her instructions. She said there was some spontaneous speech, but she thought it was probably scripted (or echolalia). He did protest rather loud (as I heard in the waiting room) when she took him from the gym to the desk to work on fine motor skills and writing. Once again, Addison and I stayed in the waiting room. Addison is quite the little personality. She went around to EVERYONE and handed them a toy or a brochure. Anyone who walked through the door was greeted by Addison and shown toys and babbled at endlessly.

Other than some behavior issues on Monday, Charlie has had a good week. After he napped on Monday afternoon, he seemed to be in a better mood. His sister can get on his nerves with her constant habit of yelling "NO!" at him. I can't say as I blame him. She actually seems to get a kick out of making him react. Charlie has been repeating a lot and singing songs with me. Today I was sitting in the car trying to read the OT assessment and both kids were getting cranky just sitting there, not moving. Charlie said "You want to get out!" Clearly he was telling me to get a move on or get him out. While he did repeat it exactly as heard as it was asked to him instead of "I want to get out". . . he can still find ways to get his message across!

Charlie is going to have a very busy summer. He will have OT on Monday and Thursday afternoons and ABA on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday mornings. Tuesday and Thursday will be 4 hours of ABA, Wednesday will be 2 hours. It's a tough schedule, but one that other parents of autistic children know well.

Next week Charlie will get an EEG and has an appointment with a pediatric neurologist. The pediatrician wanted Charlie to see a neurologist since his regression was later than average just to make sure there is nothing else going on. I saw on her report that she recommends the neurologist do a blood test for lead. Keeping Charlie still while they put numerous electrodes on his head should be fun. . . almost as much fun as holding him down for a blood draw will be! I'll have to figure out a fun and special treat for him that day.